Anthrodendum欢迎博客Bianca C. Williams。
10月15日星期天晚上,我在我的社交媒体时间线上看着女性勇敢,脆弱地分享他们的性侵犯和性骚扰的故事,作为集体谈话标记的一部分#MeToo。I contributed my own #MeToo post after reading the initial three shares by friends, writing that I did not think I knew a woman who had not experienced some form of sexualized violence. Within two hours, hundreds of my friends, colleagues, and former students had added their voices to the orchestra of rage, sadness, disappointment, indignation, frustration, and stoic resolve accompanying #MeToo. I experienced it like it was an atmosphere-piercing, discursive crescendo. As a Black feminist anthropologist who studies, teaches, and experiences the intricate ways patriarchy, misogyny, and misogynoir shape our educational institutions and lives, you would think I wouldn’t have been surprised by the sheer vastness of the stories this hashtag brought to the digital surface. But I was. And I simultaneously wasn’t. I knew the boundless reach of sexualized violence, and yet seeing its pervasiveness in the most-heartbreaking narratives of those in my communities made it more real. And then to see a few men in my timeline express shock, disbelief, and dismissive sentiments—as if they haven’t been listening to us for decades, generations—made me angry. However, it was the silence from the majority that made me livid. But isn’t silence part of how oppression works?
我去睡觉了。然后我在半夜吵闹,惊吓,对我的帖子感到不舒服,如此清楚地看到在线。最初,我与我的sistas和sistas和sistass分享故事的sistas和sibs发布了我的#metoo,并支持那些犹豫不决的社区,因为他们认为他们是唯一的。但是,因为我想到了对最接近我的强奸和性侵犯的故事,我想知道我的“驯服”甚至是性欲暴力的偶数计数in comparison to theirs. I took my post down, giving myself permission to be unsure and unresolved. I’m usually pretty transparent, even in a profession that values obscurity and inaccessibility as intellect. I attempt to practice激进诚实in discussions, writing, and teaching, believing that narrative as truth-telling is a form of resistance. But for the first time in a while, leaning into the truth didn’t feel right. Not yet.[1]我所能做的就是躺在床上,想知道那些不受欢迎的关注、感动、充满性影射的令人不安的谈话是否足以证明我在公众面前的“我”。这可能看起来很愚蠢,但再说一次,这不是压迫的工作原理吗?是不是一种力量会要求一个人量化和限定自己的痛苦,怀疑它是否“坏”到足以算作性侵犯?[2]
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